3 The weak ones eather jump, or try never to think about it, for they are just affraid of even thinking about it. The one who thinks is not weak, but strong. Ability to think and analyze, that what makes us different from anymals, and strong.
5 Thoughts of suicide are always living in my mind. Especially when I feel rotten. For me it became a common thing.
I take it as a way to escape. It's like the last door I'll knock at when there is nothing left to live for. It will, probably, be the time when I feel weak as never before and hate myself for that.
1 I think you are going to be a writer:) You have given an account of your idea very well.