My first love wasn't successful, coz it was nonmutual love. But the problem was in that he played with me. If he said to me at once that he didn't like me, I would suppressed my love to him... But from time to time he gifted me with sweet words, paid attention to me, even embraced me, but then again became indifferent. I hoped and loved. I couldn't understand his attitude to me... Of course, in time I was really fed up with such situation... And I stopped our intercourse, I kept aloof and repeated to myself that he was not my guy, that I didn't love him... And it worked... Now I got rid of my feelings to him, however I am not sure as for my reaction if he would make up his mind again to "approach" to me and renew his so-called "courting"...