You know, sometimes when I feel really disappointed and I hate all the life I dream to have a special device that would be able to stop my thinking...Now my head is swelled by different thoughts, I really want to stop thinking but I can't...My brain is looking for solutions, for some ideas how to live...and I feel that I cannot continue like this...the only available way to stop this is to fall asleep but I can't sleep also...because of these thoughts...My heart is broken, its pieces are everywhere...pieces of my past life, of everything that I loved so much and at last the person whom...actually I still love...but we can't be together any more...

I found out that I am nothing for him while he is everything for me...I wanna run from these thoughts that are slowly killing me, run from this pain that torns me to pieces...I want to forget everything...You know what I hate the most in this situation...it is that I'm really weak person, I can't struggle with myself...I feel that my