You know my heart is crying… I need you so much… But you… you don't understand me. Why life is so cruel? Why when I met the man of my dream I should leave him…. Not because I do not love you … I just can't live like this any more…I'm going crazy…You say you need me, you want to spend more time with me and fall asleep in my arms, but you know it is only words, just words… why do you say me those words if you do absolutely opposite things? I cannot understand it! I need your arms to hold me now…I do not know what to do… I am not sure that I will be able to forget you, not to think about you….I can't forget all those hours we spent together…. Do not leave me in all this pain… Do something, change this stupid situation, I wanna be with you! Sad...but you will never read this...