New Year is very soon...but I'm just crushed into pieces, I don't want this holiday to come. Just yesterday the person who is almost everything to me said that we can't be together any more. I still can't believe this. I can't stop crying, every time I recall his smiles, his hugs, kisses...I feel that a sharp knife pierces my heart...

Many people say that the New Year is the magic holiday, I want to believe that it's true. I dream that he would come back to me and understood what a fool he has been that lost me. Of course I'll be glad to see him and I will believe in magic all my life. I envy little children that they do believe in miracles, in Santa...But I'm not a small girl, I understand that life is cruel and it doesn't make our wishes come true.

But this dream helps me not to go crazy because I can't stand this pain...The only things that I can do now is crying and dreaming...